Final Coffin Nail (February 17, 2008 - Sunday)

so i see that you're still talking about me. its not much but it was 2 years ago. i try not to think about it. i try to pretend like it never happened, and i was with that someone else at the time. but i guess theres no denying it. we made a big mistake eddie. we should have stayed how we were and left it at that.

my coffin is in your basement. your fuckin trash basement where what id never saw was seen. at that moment i think i lost myself. it was a transition from what i was to what i am now. and it was too soon. i see now that there was no hidden meaning. no white rabbit. no ulterior motives. I guess it was right in front of me in black and white and red. you were all there, just you and the figment of your teenage imagination. you were driven by punk rock love songs. you actually believed that shit existed. i feel a little bad, looking back at the way i treated you. to some extent you deserved it eddie. you did. and theres no denying it. what you didnt deserve was how it happened. you didnt see it coming and thats the worst burn of it all. i know i havent said it but im sorry. and eddie i did love you for some time. and i wish i had you now, not as what we were later, but as what we were before. just two kids who trusted in each other and truely cared about each other. eddie, please tell me you remember.